Its the post that you know one day you’ll write but that day never comes, until tonight. Its the one where I tell you that its time for me to pass the torch along to the newly joined muses. I never knew if I would know when the time was right to leave. Frankly left to my own devices I would have never cut the cord. I would sooner get fired than resign. In the beginning my head swirling with ideas, never a shortage for words the posts just seem to flow out of me. A procrastinator at heart, truth be told many of those posts would be crafted in the wee hours of the night, my family long asleep, alone in the comfort of my work chair tapping along to the music. I was happy then. My favorite part of being a muse was always sharing the things that furthered my love for photography whether it be a book, a new editing tool or a palette found within your photos.
The moment I began to oscillate between wanting to write and having to write a post, I knew the end was near.
My last post was a little foretelling. I talked about wanting to step back from my hurried life. I have spent the last few years in the role of contributor, collaborator and muse all in the name of deepening the connection I already had for like minded women, women who were also mothers, bloggers, and photographers, aspiring and otherwise. I did all of this in order to better understand my place in this world. It was my hope that if I dived in head first and gave freely of myself that I would ultimately find my place in this world.
“For too many centuries women have been being muses to artists. I wanted to be the muse, I wanted to be the wife of the artist, but I was really trying to avoid the final issue — that I had to do the job myself.” ― Anaïs Nin
It’s time for me to rejoin my life, already in progress, with a different set of intentions. I want to write more which may result in shooting less and I’m OK with that. I want to find that balance between kids, work and creating art and keep it there. I’m going to get out of this chair and start physically moving my body and when I’m done I am going to exercise my brain and start writing again on my blog. Things I have put off doing for a long time.
I do know is that I will never be far from this group. You will see me continue to contribute via Flickr group and if I’m lucky maybe a guest alumni post or two. I hope so. I can’t imagine not being a part of the Mortal Muse community as we collectively watch the world of photography continue to evolve.Thank you Kirstin, Christy, Cara, Holly, Meghan, Debra, Jenny and Tammy for creating the Mortal Muses, a place where we can share our vision through the lens in the safety of a close knit community.
Wish me luck and welcome new muses, Nikki, Vanessa and Van as they take us along on a new journey.